I apologise in advance that this is unlikely to be eloquent in any way. I just seem to have an overly busy brain tonight and the best cure I know is to write. So excuse my blurting. Thanks.

• I’m already tired of making grown up decisions alone
• I really miss my dad (see above)
• I need a cry, but tears won’t come
• I’m exhausted and overwhelmed
• If a don’t get a cuddle soon, I can’t be held responsible for my actions
• My trust issues are seriously getting the better of me re new relationship
• Maybe I’m too broken to be with someone
• The man called Dave has blocked me
• I’m not sure why the above bothers me, but I preferred an amicable distance between us to a hostile one
• Did I mention I need a cry?
• Or a cuddle? Yeah it’s more urgent than that
• Have been ticking stuff off my to-do list like a boss
• Yet still feel like an utter failure at life
• Now my head hurts
• I’m having massive second thoughts about the breast op
• Or perhaps I’m having second thoughts about the massive breast op (see what I did there?)
• I am feeling incredibly alone right now. And lonely.
• My current overthinking is almost certainly a consequence of being stuck in the four walls
• I’m wondering if I’m at risk of completely losing the plot
• A lot of things scare me
• A lot of things irritate me
• My confidence is lower than low
• I still need a cuddle

Forgive my rambling stream of consciousness. I doubt it makes a lot of sense to anyone else. Doesn’t really make sense to me. But it is as it is.

Thanks for reading 👼🏻